Hope and Sin Not

Heavenly Father,
The older I get the more I realize how little I know.  You alone are worthy Lord! I pray that Your Name, Your Will, Your Love, Your Grace, Your Creativity and Your Sacrifice will forever be before me.  That I would dwell on those things before I begin to think/ consider/ plan/ hope for anything else. 

You know that right now my thoughts are full of a man who appears to be wise, circumspect, full of Your Spirit and love for Your people.  He gives voice to things that I've often felt, but have never articulated.  He teaches things that I hear and instantly see Your Truth displayed. 

He's handsome, thoughtful, talented, exhibits self control and has a heart for You.  He is an excellent representation of what a man of God should be... LOL... Can I LOL in a written prayer? I need to LOL because my heart longs for a man like this- a man who would be a leader in my home.  But my heart is deceitful. I've never even met him...  I don't really know him, but I see You in him...I think.

You know how badly I want to get married and how scared I am of it.  I'm scared of marriage and I'm scared of being alone.  Yet I know that perfect love casts out fear.  Your love is the only perfect love that exists.

Help me to hope and sin not.  Help me to recognize the beauty of a man who was created by You without placing him above You.  Help me to remember that the things that I find most attractive in him come from You.  They are only found in him because they are a reflection of You, Your grace and gifts. 

Help me to pray for him and learn from him without lusting after him.  Help me to turn my eyes toward, place my faith in and set my will on following Christ.  Lord, help me to keep my focus on You and not on my fantasies and longings for a physical partner. Help me learn how to be more emotionally intimate with You.  All of my wishful thinking and creative writing pales in comparison with the things of You!  With the stuff of life!  With the King of Kings! With THE Creator and Keeper!

Help me to admire without obsessing.  Keep me grounded in the love of You.  Forgive me for putting my own desires before You.  Forgive me for my shallow thinking and prayers.  Forgive me for my faithless and self-centered walk. 

Show, remind, and strengthen me so that I can live a life, think thoughts and do works that will bring You great pleasure and Joy.
~Me